June 21, 2007

Challenging the membrane

I was trying to figure out why I was unsettled at my current temporary job. What was it that I found mildly unnerving about it? I finally stumbled across my answer. Working there makes me feel dumb. Not because I am, because I'm not. It's because I'm working with so many really intelligent people. Don't get me wrong, it's not like my regular job has stupid people, it's just different working with a bunch of technical people. I feel like the slow girl in the bunch instead of being a smartie where I am now. It's disconcerting.

I do like it though. I really have to think about what I'm doing. It's such a contrast because I am in the same sort of postion where I'm working as an admin assistant. There is just more to the temp job. I actually feel like I'm doing something, where I don't feel that way at school. And I didn't know thinking all freaking day would make me so darn hungry by the end of the day. What the heck?


Suzanne said...

Well, it's hard going from the bright one to the slow group. Sometimes I have to remind myself that my field is different, and if I wanted to, I could have been an engineer. It's all about being good at what you do. And to be honest, I be that they know you are smart, and can entrust you with complicated tasks that the normal admin asst can't do.

Lesley said...

I've always been the slow girl. It's why I'm still in school. ;)

Seriously, it's all about different kinds of intelligence. I don't think there is *any* cut and dry way to define "smart" anymore.

LE said...

I had a bunch of friends from Northwestern when I first moved to Chicago. That set me on years of thinking I was actually dumber that I thought.